Keepin' it Real: Giving Myself Permission to Take a Break
One of the things I struggle with is taking down time. I’m really good at pushing myself for hours on end for weeks at a time. If I have a deadline or a task at hand, I’m like a dog with a bone and I don’t give up.
While I am a total champion of ‘me-time’, I fail to take enough of it when I have a lot on my plate. I know it recharges me and that I need it, but when my to-do list is a mile long, it’s hard for me to justify setting everything aside to curl up with a good book for the afternoon or go for a long, leisurely drive.
Because of this disconnect between my strong belief in ‘me-time’ and my lack of ‘walking the talk’, I thought it’d be helpful to share this side of me and my plan to try to bridge the gap for today’s Keepin’ it Real share.
For the past 7-8 months, I’ve been in coaching school, working my full time job, trying to maintain my blog/website, figuring out how to launch a business, and decluttering/reorganizing my home.
It’s not uncommon for me to work 15-16 hour days, 6-7 days a week for weeks at a time. While I love everything I’m working on, a lot of things have taken a back seat.
I don’t see my friends nearly as much as I used to (and thankfully, they’re still there for me!), I don’t workout or take care of myself as much as I used to (ummm…hello 15 hour days…nothin’ about that says ‘taking care of myself’), my house isn’t as clean as I’d like it to be (it’s not a trash pit, but it’s not the peaceful oasis, where everything is in it’s place, which I envision), and I have a stack of books that is begging to be read (why I continue to order more books is beyond me, but there’s so many good books out there!).
As of Monday night, I finally finished all of my requirements, save one final exam call, for my coaching school and certification.
Starting next week, my calendar suddenly clears and I have some weeknights to myself. For the past 6+ months, I’ve rushed home from work every night during the week, gobbled down a quick dinner, and hopped on the phone for peer calls, class, coaching calls, etc., until bedtime.
But, in July, I actually have a few nights where I don’t have anything scheduled and I’m guarding that like the crown jewels! Ain’t nobody snatching that time away from me!
With my body starting to take a huge sigh of relief at my impending slow down, it’s made me start to feel how very tired I am. I’m not physically tired…I’m mentally tired.
My brain needs a break.
So…I’ve decided to take one.
What I Crave
I'm craving down time.
I’m craving not living by the clock because I have to be ready for a call or an appointment.
I do realize as I’m about to embark on launching a business while working full time that I am signing up for a crazy busy schedule where I will be working a lot.
I’m okay with that, but I realize I have to take breaks in my schedule and that is perfectly okay.
That’s a really hard concept for me to embrace.
But, a few weeks ago, I learned the power of listening to my body and taking breaks. After really pushing myself hard for the month of May, by the end of the month, I was running on fumes. Finally, on Memorial Day, I crashed. My mind was telling me to keep going, I still had a lot to get done, but my body was like…nope, that’s it. We’re shutting this down.
I crashed on my couch, wrapped myself up in a blanket, and didn’t move while watching a movie (Harry Potter is always there for me in my times of need!).
I felt helpless, overwhelmed, and that I was crazy for thinking I could do all of this. I was wallowing in my own personal, handmade mud pit. It felt pretty awful.
After the movie ended, I was starting to feel a little better, but instead of going back to work (which had been my intention), I listened to what I was craving.
I picked up my journal and wrote for a while. Then, I went for a walk, then I did some pilates/yoga, then I played with my tarot cards, then I meditated. I spent the rest of the day doing whatever I felt like doing to heal myself.
By the end of the day, I felt like an entirely new person. I felt like myself. I felt energized, light, hopeful, joyful….recharged.
I crave that…that feeling of being recharged by taking the time to turn within and do what my body and mind needs.
It taught me that those little breaks where I can tune into what my body craves is what gives me more energy and refuels me. It's what will allow me to have the crazy schedule and not run myself down.
I crave figuring out a way to work this into my life going forward and I’m calling those my harmony breaks.
I crave more harmony breaks.
Giving myself Permission to Take a Break
As my crazy schedule for school winds down, I’m doing the unthinkable (unthinkable for me, that is!)…I’m going to give myself permission to take a break.
I have SO many ideas for my business, my website, and my tribe, but I feel like I’ve just been playing catch up. I haven’t been able to really set aside time to brainstorm, plan things, etc.
I’m a creative person and I love to come up with new ideas and make plans to put them into action, but I’ve been so busy chasing my crazy schedule, I’ve only been able to wish I had time to indulge in the creative/planning side of things.
I want to have time to do just that, but I also want to enjoy some time where I’m not working.
I want to enjoy the summer. I want to enjoy the beautiful areas of Connecticut that surround me by getting out and exploring. I want time to let my brain relax so I can then enter into a brainstorming and planning phase.
I want to see my friends, I want to read some books, I want to figure out what it looks like to work my harmony breaks into my schedule so I don’t push myself to the point of breaking.
I want to move, workout, dance in my living room, go for long walks, etc.
So, my friends, I’m going to take a break from my website/blog for the month of July so I can do all of the above.
I’m giving myself permission to take some time off and just be (I still have to do my full time job…so it’s not a full month off to myself. That would be nice, right?!).
What I’m Hoping for
I’m hoping by the time August rolls around, I’ll feel more relaxed and completely recharged.
I’m hoping I’ll have a plan in place for some really cool stuff around here that I can kick off later this fall.
I’m hoping I feel healthier and more in control of my schedule.
I’m hoping I’ll be ahead of the game instead of perpetually behind.
I’m hoping I’ll have a new, dedicated self-care practice in place that I can use as my foundation when I’m back in the game after my break.
I’m hoping to be reconnected with myself and to have greater clarify on what’s next for me.
That’s a lot to hope for from one month, but I’m open to whatever flows my way. I’m planning to listen to what feels right and to go with that.
While I’m Gone
While I’m away from my blog, feel free to get in touch with me if you have any questions, comments, etc. Contact me with questions, comments, or just a friendly hello!
I’m going to try to share my harmony breaks and whatever I get up to on Instagram since it’s my favorite social media tool, so follow me there if you want to take a peek behind the scenes.
I hope you enjoy your July and I hope this inspires you to take a little time for yourself as well!!